When a new year arrives, it brings about promises for change, aspirations to achieve dreams, or meet some type of goal or resolution. But this year, it’s a little different for me. Instead of looking forward, I’m reflecting on years past. Years when loved ones were still around, and the whys of actions (or lack thereof) remained a curiosity of a shy young lady too scared to rock the boat. And too afraid to trust anyone with the secrets in her head and her heart.
Building a wall may have been a security blanket, but who did it really keep warm? Certainly not me. I realize now that I shut out many who only wanted the best for me, and kept silent about the ones who meant the worst.
Things are different now. The wall’s coming down.
For 2018, my plan is very simple. Live a life that is pleasing to God and treat others with love and kindness. Of course I will still continue with the other goals that matter to me like this blog, and the bucket list items mentioned awhile ago (which I’m happy to announce I now know how to swim and had a blast in L.A.). At the end of the day, or rather, when I’m old and gray(er), I want to look at my life and see not only material accomplishments, but be encircled by loved ones. It may not sound like much, but to me it’s everything.